The Ability to Receive.

In my quest for truth, I have reached a point in the path that has a sign.

 On that sign are the words  “Can you receive?” 

 Surely I can receive.

 Surely I wouldn’t be the one to block that which I am.

 Surely, I say, and repeat in my mind, that can’t be me. 

 

To learn this lesson is to look inside.  I look.  I see nothing.  Am I empty?  What is this?  How can my being be empty?  Is that because I am not receiving the gifts that are waiting for me?  Could this be that I am giving but never receiving?

 

So then I wonder what is this ability to receive?  How does one go about becoming receptive?  What does it mean when one refuses to receive?   These are all valid questions that I have yet to receive answers for. 

 

I wonder if there are classes in receiving?

 I pray.

 I ask to be helped to open and receive.

 I have a small sign given to me that day.  A shopkeeper gives me a cup.  If I am given something then am I learning to receive?  Is this cup a symbol of the quest I am on?   As the cup is a symbol of holding and giving fluid, as in tea or coffee can this have meaning in my quest to learn receptivity? 

 Every day I ask anew for help with this lesson.

 Today I find that I am at the point of wanting to surrender.

 Surrender what?  What does surrender have to do with receiving?

  Surrender comes with great waves of emotion.

 Why emotion?  What is going on here?

 I just want to learn the ability to receive.

 What would be releasing in my heart to make all of that emotion.  What is this block to receiving that I can’t even put a name on it? 

 Tears fall, sobs rack my body and still I have no idea what I am letting go of, no thoughts well up, no person comes to mind.  It is as though I am letting go of something hidden even in the process.

  Is it a wall of quiet that blocks the gifts? 

 

In my most inner self a voice is whispering.  The story by Kryon called “The Journey Home” is brought to mind.   Michael Thomas of “Pure Intent” takes “the journey home” and with his intent becomes Michael Thomas “Current.”

 

 He has used his intent to become a human living “now” and in order for intent to become reality one must be able to receive. 

 

 

 

Abundance in Spirit

                                                                       Abundance in Spirit

 

As the education that I have, and still am experiencing progresses I find that I have moved from Trust to Abundance.  Even though I still know that trust is an integral aspect of abundance.  A form of being totally and completely in the present with no concern to where and what will take place is certainly part of a trusting nature.  So the first step in abundance seems to be the act of trust.  I see that the first part of my learning about living in the creative now is to learn to trust and then to express that trust by living in abundance.  In learning about abundance I have been through some experiences that could only be called lessons.  Of course we all have lessons, but the question is- have we learned?  Of course if we haven’t we will become stuck because the lessons are to be learned fully, so we get “stuck” just because we haven’t learned what we have set up for our lesson. 

 

I ask myself, why do we need to learn about abundance.  Why are we in lack?  A baby comes into the world with no thought in the mind about whether or not his needs will be met.  A teacher I once had would say when he heard a babies cry;  “that is the purest form of prayer that exists.”  Think about it, a baby cries and we automatically see to his needs.  What abundance that is.  All that is needed for the survival of the infant is present in nature, mother’s milk, and immunity along with nourishment, security and warmth in the arms of others.  So again I ask, “Why are we in lack?”

 

When is that moment when we decide that we are victims?  The one that we have made the connection to the prevailing thought process?  The thought process that is systemic and endemic in most societies today on earth.  The process and belief system that says life is hard, and that we must fit the norm, and that money is the source of our abundance.  The quest for money is a difficult quest for many, an easy one for some, but it isn’t abundance, it is money.  The fact that we put the quest for money before the quest (and it isn’t a quest, it’s more of a fact) for abundance is the source of disharmony in all ways.  Abundance is.  One doesn’t have to search for abundance one has just to accept it.

 

 

Joy in our hearts, is this a possibility?

Oh, the joy that I feel in my heart, quietly present to give me sustanence and smiles!

In a life that could be noted for non-joyous disheartening expressions, what a rare and spiritual gift that has been bestowed on me~ the knowledge of joy.  The knowing of joy as a living and spiritual part of my heart.

Sometimes I find it harder to know joy because I have put barriors in my own energy field to the joy that resides there.

I know it is  always here, I just sometimes forget.

All of human kind have the keys;

its like the “Eagles” song  Already Gone,

” So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains, and we  never even  know we have the key.”

None of us are stuck, we have just forgotten where we left our keys.

And how do we find our keys?

Through any spiritual practice and through love and patience.

LOVE YOURSELF!

BE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF!

HAVE GOALS BUT DON’T BE A TASKMASTER.

TAKE TIME TO DANCE, SING AND BREATH IN FREE AIR.

LIVE AS FULLY AS YOU WOULD LIKE TO BE LOVED.

LISTEN TO SPIRIT.

GO WHERE YOU ARE IMPRESSED TO GO.

KNOW THAT OUR CONNECTIONS ARE REAL!

 

Playing in Time

So long ago and far away

I started my journey to today.

“What is that mystery?”  I say,

That we call time.

For indeed my heart cries out

the word thats used should be “Play”.

Finding joy in all you do

Brings a strength and sense of peace

That looks a lot like play.

 

Have fun today and listen to Eve Sheldon on “The Walk In Cafe”.

My questions never seem to end.  I have to learn as much as I can to understand what it means to have a connection with someone.  Why these connections brings us to greater awareness of our selves and our lives and our purpose.

.THERE IS THE SACRED IN ALL OF LIFE.

That is the concept behind process of being present in every moment.  That way we honor the sacred in everything.

ALL CONNECTIONS ARE SACRED.

We have the ability to know one another and learn about life and the sacredness therein by loving each person we see, just as we are totally present and loving each moment.

 

Looking back for a day.

I spent almost all of Tuesday this week looking back.  Its easy now with the internet to look into things that have been a part of our past life in this lifetime.  I guess I sort of had a life review.

The realization that I came up with was that I have spent 49 years living and studying the spiritual path I am on. 

I started the retrospection by looking into a spiritual group that was my first experience with so many things. 

 My first time to recognize SPIRIT in ACTION. 

 The first time I ever heard the words “Not one soul will be lost.”

Because I had no formal spiritual training, I had been looking into religion and spiritual teachings by reading since I was in high school.  I had come across a lot of doctrines and philosphies but never had I heard not one soul will be lost.   I was hooked!  I needed to hear more.  Could this be the beginning of my beleif system?  I had to know.

Then it was time to move on from this group.

I felt like a failure.  Spriit guided me though and taught me that moving forward in my progression alone was an initiation.

How many more have come my way since?  I have lost count.

Today after my meditation I blessed every person that has been a part of my journey and every initiation, difficult though they may have seemed.  I have lived my dream.

It has been magnificent.

Blessings abound,  Starr

 

The Ginko Leaf as a gift.

June 28,2012.

More than forty years ago a friend gave me a ginko leaf.  She also gave me a bible to place it in as she was shocked and astounded to find that I didn’t own a bible.

The ginko leaf has been replaced several times since then.  The Bible is still the one she bought for me.

This friend taught me a lot.  She was Italian American (first generation) and grew up on Long Island, New York.

The most important thing she taught me, a little girl from the midwest where everyone looked and sounded the same was to pay attention to the little details and see others as they see themselves, and to honor that in every way you can.  For her I learned to say “italian” in a new way, I learned to not say “Italian” with a long I sound because she felt that it was not the correct pronunciation.  This little Iowa girl had no idea she said it wrong.  This lesson is and was a hard one.  How could I be so incorrect without even knowing I was?

  How could such a small thing make such a big difference?

  People are very different when you get off of the farm!

Growing up in Rural America we all held certain things to be truth, and we thought we knew how to behave in “polite society” and we were the best gossips that ever could be found.  A small community with similar backgrounds and similar ways of eating, talking, and sharing with each other.  No one ever told me that when I moved to a new place there would be people that lived and looked different, that there would be people that spoke different and took offense when their names were mispronounced.  I learned it from a really wonderful friend who left my life after she was my teacher of how to live life in a larger more all inclusive world than I had ever even dreamed of.  They say people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.  She was definately a reason and a season.  Thank you my wonderful Anne Marie.

The story of the ginko leaf is a tradition that if you keep a ginko leaf pressed in your bible or other holy book you will never have lack in your life.  I have carried this lovely thought with me and always love the kindness and tradition that inspired her gift to me and my gift to others when a ginko leaf is available.

Listen to my show tonight at

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/biteradiome/2012/06/29/open-mic-with-starrwalk-in-cafe

 

Maybe we can plant a ginko tree.

 

New web site

Our new website is thewalkincafe.com   I would love it if you visit us there.

A new time of year.

It has been months since I have talked to you through wordpress on The Walk In Cafe. I have been in a place of change and change brings us into times when we seem to be less able to announce our thoughts to the world. Sometimes it is enough to just keep on walking and talking and breathing.
But hopefully I am back with some information about the still ongoing radio show that will excite everyone as much as it does me.

Fly Away

 

I lay sleeping in her arms.

Gentle, warm, the serenity of safety.

Oh, the sun it bathes us

In a golden light.

Softly we awaken.

Lovers, ever new,

To see the love partaken.

A world that is pure magic

Blue and gold and green.

Leaves and stone, a mystery

In the ferny glen.

As magic begets magic

As love so begets love

The mother touches gently

Those that are her children

And watches with pain and amusement

The pangs of growth and lessons.

Then spreads her arms in perfect surrender

 to let me fly away.